I've started doing the one thing I had always said I would never try; writing. I was always horridly critical of my work outside of essays or research papers. I credit my love of film as a factor in my becoming more comfortable with it all. Today I happened to check my page count, I've written almost thirty pages, plus at least two other hand written chapters. Might not seem like a lot to other writers, but I couldn't help but smile. Even more shocking I am very very pleased with what I have written so far. I even began storyboarding an idea for a movie just for fun. My confidence in my photography has also increased greatly (I got a new beautiful camera for my birthday), in fact my artistic confidence has been rather high lately. I am sitting typing this and I now notice how odd of a feeling genuine confidence is; It's odd for some one who, for almost her whole life never felt confident about much of anything. Why should anyone else care, I'm not sure. But I suppose I mean it like this; If you feel you are not good at something (writing, cooking, drawing, etc....) don't avoid it for your whole life, try it. It could change everything you thought you were capable of.
Film will always be my life long passion. My pursuits in that field have not been altered, in fact they have been increased, become more realized and desirable (if that is even possible).
I can say that I am proud of my writing despite my self critical nature. Even if I am the only one to ever read it I will be happy that I started writing it.